Wacky Wednesday

I turned the corner unto my street. With the change in time, the road was a little dark. My car lights illuminated my path and right there in front of me was a possum, ugly little creature. I slowed down to allow this rodent monster to escape. However, this rat on steroids is as stupid as it is ugly and continued to move in the path of my car slowly rather than quickly scurrying away. This wasn't a long exchange between me in the large car ready to commit road kill (not on purpose) and the beady-eyed, fat, long tailed, ugly rat in front of me. It finally got out of the way. I drove quickly home just in case the possum knew where I lived and would camp outside my house waiting to attack me as I went inside.

Everything outside and inside my house was dark. My mom hadn't arrived home with the kids. I experience something indescribable when I get to the house and Alberto and Camille are there. They hear the garage door open and run and wait for me to open the door to come in. There is excitement and a feeling of "this is good". Today, there wasn't that. I got home to a dark house with barking dogs and I waited.

And while I waited, I obsessed over the question posed to me,"are you happy being a mom?". I know. I should let it go. But that would be out of character. And I guess the truth is as I walked around my empty house, I came up with the non-defensive reality....as exhausting and physically and emotionally taxing it can be at times; I love my life; I'm grateful for my life; I feel honored to be Alberto's mom; and my heart's desire is to be the best mom that I can be to him; I think he deserves that. Truthfully, I beat myself up most of the time and think I could do better -- probably leading me to feeling overwhelmed.

As I looked through these pictures, I thought..."how could anyone not love having this little guy in their life? and how on earth could that even be a question?

Alberto decided he wanted to wear his hat while he watched Blue's Clues.

The Life of the Party

I was so excited when Alberto actually posed for this picture. It was super cute!

"Who says this is only for dolls?" And yes, his cousins actually push him in this stroller.

Precious. This was right before he walked past the rocks and into the water. Well, I got him before he actually went into the bay.