Monday Madness

The cool midst humidifier is humming in the background, Nightline is running some story on something. Right now, it's just white noise. I finally figured out how to customize my design of my blog, and I feel relieved, even though I am not sure if I am happy with the selection. So don't be surprised if everything changes again.

Changes are good. I am not necessarily one that likes changes but they are good and sometimes, changes are necessary. I didn't think that daycare was going to be a good change. In fact, I was a die hard against daycare. I wanted mommycare combined with nannycare. Well, economics and life had a different path for us. And it turns out that daycare has been really good for Alberto. Either that or he has finally blossomed into a completely alive and vibrant little boy. He was always all smiles. But he is just so full of life now. And if it means having had to go through the craziness of the transition of daycare...it is worth it.

Alberto has been very difficult with his eating lately. Actually, the difficulty is that Alberto wants to feed himself. And it's a change I'm torn about. On one hand, I think it is fabulous that he wants to feed himself and he does a pretty good job -- most of the time. At the end of the meal, there is food all over his face, hands, shirt, pants, chair and eaten by the dogs. But, he does it. On the other hand, I want to make sure that more gets inside of him; I want to make less of a mess; I want to still have that mommy baby relationship where he needs me to feed him; I want dinner to take less than an hour. Thing is, I'm too tired to get my way so I give in and let him continue to develop and mature and allow my baby to turn into a toddler.

And as he changes from a young toddler into a more vibrant and robust toddler full of life, his personality continues to just unfold before my eyes. We were at Target last week -- you know, had to buy Pediasure and forced to buy a few other items not on the list -- and he saw the Christmas trees and lights. He was mezmerized and in awe of them. He didn't want to leave the area. I knew at that moment that I had to get him to Disney World to see the Magic Kingdom decorated for Christmas. Let's see how I pull this one off. I think he would just be dazzled by it all.

At the end of the day when I hear that humidifer running and something on TV acting as whitenoise, I realize that life is good. There are many days when I'm tired; other days when I'm overwhelmed. But with the hum of the humidifer, I smile. Life is good in the midst of change, of craziness, of madness and mess. Life is good even when things don't make sense and when I'm not in control. And then there are times when life is even better than good! It's GREAT!

At our local Guatemalan adoption family holiday party this weekend.



My Little Adventurer

He thinks this is a slide -- it was really steep when I had to climb to the top to rescue him.