It's Who You Know...

This morning, I woke up with a new found respect for the "crazy mom". You don't drop a bomb on someone about their kid and not really give her "information" or any "reassurances". I woke up thinking about friends who also recently brought home their kids who have been dealing with "real" medical issues. And I felt a new level of compassion to the anxiety and the reality of "no control". I thought of a friend who was truly scared for her little girl. And I was going to call her up and ask her to remind me about all the encouragement I gave her...

The only encouragement I had for her were biblical references of God's faithfulness; His control; and His character. And so bringing the reality who God is to the forefront of my mind and heart brought comfort to my anxiety.

I also talked to both doctors in my office. They both think that my pediatrician is CRAZY and WRONG (I like that! Support for the crazy mom) One asked if the pediatrician had talked to the endocrinologist that practices in the same office. I said no. To which she responded..."yes, because she didn't want him to yell at her." Everyone has seen Alberto, and they comment on how much he has progressed and grown. He does not have failure to thrive -- and clinically speaking a child with failure to thrive does not grow 2 inches in 3 months (I may be wrong, but I don't think so). We all concurred that the scale was broken, and we just needed to re-weigh him. Peace in the middle of my storm -- Thank you Jesus.

I did get the appointment for GI. I could have gone tomorrow but... HMO. So Tuesday, we will go see him to get his opionion. Hum, who will he agree with? Me or the pediatrician? (another symptom of the crazy mom).

What my experts conclude is that maybe he has lost weight which would be normal for a small child who recently had a stomach virus and is becoming very active. This is normal.

"Crazy moms" really aren't crazy. We are worried, scared and have no control. We react out of instinct. Sometimes, that doesn't come across as the most composed and rational. Granted, working on the other team, I also know that doctors today turf things out to the specialist to protect themselves, just in case they do miss something. So probably nothing but better safe than sorry.


My nanny... Another topic for another day. We have issues...

Lessons learned: It isn't about God showing up -- God never left; He's in the middle of the storm with you. Trust your gut but seek out expert opinions -- denial is not the right state to live in if you are a parent. And it's okay to be a crazy mom...